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Dec 21, 2004
Love is not like anything; especially a fucking knife!!
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable, come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
Well its certain, im really fucking pisst off. =) My "cousin" Amanda and I have been trying to get me to shadow her since like last fucking year! And what does she do?! Well first off i was able to shadow her f`in finally! But does that matter to her? NO. She instead goes behind my back and asks my best friend to shadow her instead =). And what does my best friend do? She of course just went ahead and asked her dad and since he said yes, shes shadowing my cousin tomorrow =). And all this time my best friend knew I was excited to, and was suppose to, shadow my cousin. But what does she do? She tells my cousin no because she knows i was suppose to and wanted to real bad. HAH! NOT!!!! >=O She goes there this afternoon and is sleeping over to shadow my cousin tomorrow at her school =). Yep, i cant be more happier for them. Let me tell you. Hope you guys have fun tomorrow =D !!! Oh and before i end this entry Id just like to say that i love it when my friends become friends with my enemys just for the hell of it =). Even though they got pisst off when i was friends with them, but of course i cant be friends with them, but they can =). Im estatic about the whole thing. Mmmhmmm. Later.
 ....=/ xOox
Posted at 09:01 pm by PrettyGirlx0
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Dec 20, 2004
the sKy will cRy the blAcKest teArs tOnight.
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
Dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone
How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way
Wow my day was crazy. First this morning my sister got in the shower before my alarm even went on! So I got fucking cold water. Then just as the bus was stopping at my house I was coughing real bad and I threw up a bit. It was disgusting, i felt naseuated. But instead of going in the house and staying home, I got my ass on the bus =P. then first period, english, we had a test on the Antigone story. I payed mostly attention when we were reading the book so I didnt have to guess on alot fo the questions. Then later when I saw Mrs. Babbick she turned around and told me i did a "super job!" on the test! =) l0l. And Mr. Loeber told me I got an 86 on the test we took last thursday and friday. Which im proud of since I actually did study, l0l...Bio's always fun because Eric, joe, Dave, and Fossticles (steve) are always entertaining. =P But the only gross part was watching a film on digestion. It showed the actual stomach and the other organs. It was gross. Then after that we watched the beginning on a reproduction movie! Wow, that was eve more disgusting, lmao.In global for the days we have before vaca we are watching the Goonies =). It`s hilarious. !2th period went by fast, usually it goes by slow. but today Tara and I stopped by Mr. Rosenbeck's office and he was on the tele so we stayed until he was off, and in the mean time i helped Jeff Hathaway with his Antigone test, l0l, then finally we just slid the card tara had for rosenbeck under his door =P. Then as usual we played hangman and tara n i just kept kidding around and dissin each other, lmao it was fun =). Well that was my day, i know it`s boring but oh well I dunno what else to put in my journal besides my day at lovely Pembroke. ( hah )
^ FUCKING GORGEOUS!!!!! ASHTON KUTCHER IS SOOO SEXI =)
xOox`
Posted at 03:01 pm by PrettyGirlx0
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Dec 19, 2004
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don't want to talk about it
God send me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry(is cry)
God send me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes
Hmm well it has gotten quite freezing outside. =/ This weekend sucked, thats usual. Friday night went to my cousin Stacie's house. My mom, wyatt, and I went. We were going to watch scary movies, but they my mom, wyatt, stacie and her bf jeff just kept chatting and drinking coffee. So my lil cousin Courtney and I watched Rudolph =) l0l. Then she went and was running around the house playing with her cat. And i stayed by the t.V and put in the dvd player " Mean Girls". i saw that movie when it came out in theatres and havent seen it since. So I watched it there again. Then I fell asleep around 10:30pm and my mom came and woke me up around 12:30 so we could leave. Saturday my mom went shopping with my cousin Tara. I started dinner and then when my mom got home she finished from where i left off. Mmm it was delicious! =) l0l. Then Wyatt, my mom, n i went in their room and watched Titanic =) haha. When the first tape ended I was tired as hell and so were they, and it was about 11pm so I went in my room and passed out right away =P. then this morning I woke up and just chilled around the house. Listened to music for a bit in my room, then read some of my book, and about 2-3 hours ago I came online and wrote in here, l0l. And now Im bak. =) But Im gunna go now bc it is freaking cold down here!!
=/....xOox
Posted at 08:43 pm by PrettyGirlx0
The stars must have fallen out of the sky; because I see them in your eyez.
^yumm! =)
It`s almost C h r i s t m a s ! =) And i cant wait !!
I'm about to lose control
I don't know why
Why you need some reason to feel lost inside
You, you know that I'm alright
You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles
I don't do excuses
I don't ask why
It's just a breakdown
It happens all the time
So get outa my face
Don't even try
Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
Yeah I loved you all my life
but you don't even know a thing I feel inside
No, by the look in my eye
That I'm just fine but I might need you to hold me tight
I don't do excuses
I don't ask why
It's just a breakdown
It happens all the time
So get outa my face
Don't even try
Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
I had a bad day, I 'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
Just let me.... cry
I'm breaking down just let me cry
I don't do excuses
I don't ask why
It's just a breakdown
It happens all the time
So get outa my face
Don't even try
Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
|\` xOxo `/|
hehe, muah* bye =)
Posted at 05:18 pm by PrettyGirlx0
Dec 14, 2004
DESCRIBE YOUR:
Wallet? Don't own one
Hairbrush? black & blue
Toothbrush? red & white then myn @ my 2nd house (christinas, lol) is green n white =P
Jewelry worn daily? A ring my moms ex bf bought me for x-mas last yr.
Pillow cover? moond n stats & one thats just dark blue
Blanket? white with blue then another one thats dark blue n has moon n stars on it l0l
Sunglasses? None
Underwear? neccessity, lmao
Favorite shirt? my volcom one
Cologne/Perfume? Tommy girl and Curious
CD in stereo right now? Maroon 5 but im listening to Down to Earth Approach
Tattoos? im thinkin bout mayb gettin one when im 18
Piercings? Ears
What you are wearing now? mickey mouse boxers and a dark green beater ( lmao )
In my mouth? My tongue & saliva?
In my head? thinkin about watching a movie after this quiz =P
Wishing? i was on vacation
What are you doing after this? See the question "in my head?"
If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? haha, i`ll keep that to myself, but there is more than 1 person, lmao
Person you wish you could see right now? my dad =/
What is on your desk? A whole lot of printer papers
Some of your favorite movies? super troopers, bruce almighty, spiderman2, and alot more!
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month? X-MAS!!! then my 16th b-day!! =)
Something that you are deathly afraid of? lil insects and death itself i guess.
Do you like candles? Yessir
Do you like incense? some of them
Do you like the taste of blood? EEEW! HELL NO
Do you believe in love? what kind of dumb question is that!
Do you believe in soul mates? not rele
Do you believe in love at first sight? hasnt happened to me, but shur.
Do you believe in Heaven? yesss
Do you believe in God? yesss
What do you want done with your body when you die? Uhm, cremation? i think. im too young to worry bout that LOL
What is the latest you've ever stayed up? 11pm
Can you eat with chopsticks? sometimes
What's something that you wish people would understand? I dont really care what ppl say.
What's something you wish you could understand better? where my life is going.
Who is someone that you really wish was still around? my Grandma
HAVE YOU EVER...
Kissed someone: yessir
Killed someone: if i did dont u think i`d be in prison right now?
Smoked: hell no
Gotten Drunk: buzzed
Worn rainbow: haha mayb when I was lil
Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: oh yeah lol
Left the country: went to mexico when i was 3 and canada alot lol
Had a party with over 30 people: many times
Taken nude pictures: not that i know of lmao
Stolen something: uhhh....
Caught something on fire: sure who hasnt played with fire =P
Wanted to cheat on someone: lmao, i`ll get bak to you on that.
Dumped someone: many times lmao
Had a dream, then the next day it happens: thats why they have a word for it, its called dejavu
LAST PERSON...
You Touched: when i went to wake up my sister
Sexually: haha, cant say
You Talked to in person: uhm, my grandpa?
You hugged: Christina my bffe
You Instant messaged: Christina, lmao
Who broke your heart: ugh =/
ARE YOU…
Understanding: most times
Insecure: who isnt nowadays?
Smart: in sum sujects
Moody: haha im a girl, we have no choice but to once a month, LMAO
Difficult: when im pisst off lol
Attractive: why are you asking me?
Bored: lets see, im doing this quiz...uh YEAH!
Controlling: nah
Happy: can be
Trusting: lost alot of trust in some of my old friends and sum family recently =/
Talkative: only when i need to make a point
Ignored: possibly, but i ignore right bak lol
Reliable: yes
Lonely: right now...yes =/
FOODS YOU LIKE...
Tacos?: only hard shell!
Bread?: sum
Veggies?: certain ones
Pizza?: im american
Pretzels?: i guess
Chocolate?: mmhmm =) lol
Garlic?: shur
Veal?: tried it once and love it!
Chicken?: of course
Ice cream?: def.
Hot Pockets?: eew
Popcorn?: hate it
Pop Tarts?: toaster strudel, lol
Salad?: wendy's greek salad, lol
Coke?: eew, taste like medal
Pepsi?: mmmhmmm
Gatorade?: it`s okay
HAVE YOU EVER?
Bungee jumped?: no and i dont plan on it! lol
Sky dived?: NEVER
Skinny dipped?: once
Gotten your tongue stuck to a cold pole?: i tried but it wasnt cold enuff
Had pop rocks and coke together: haha it`s awesome!
Played truth or dare?: tons
Puked on someone you really liked?: no thk gosh
Mixed sodas together?: mountain dew n pepsi lol
Had sushi?: i hate fish!!
Had dejavu?: didnt i already answer this question?
Hung up on someone?: lmao LOADS of times =)
Used all cuss words in a sentence?: wudnt make sense afterwards lol
Stood on your head and drank milk?: i cant even stand on my head!
Cried during a movie: yes
Swallowed gum?: lmao, accidently
Eaten glue?: eew
Slept for more than 15 hrs?: i dunno, you want me to time myslef next time?
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. spiders
2. being alone in the dark
3. nightmares
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1.Christina, lmao, bffe!
2. family
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. christina
2. my family
3. food. lol
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. smoking
2. backstabbers
3. my school and the ppl in it
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. how can someone who says their your friend, go and lie about shit beihnd your back
2. Death
3. life
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1. this essay thats startin to bug me since it likes to repeat questions
2. listening to green day =)
3. freezing my ass off!!
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. get married and have children
2. Meet someone famous
3. see europe
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. make someone laugh
2. make the best of a bad situation
3. Get in trouble
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1. find the right guy
2. explain something i dont understand
3. stand on my head and drink milk
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. Hyper; lmao
2. out going
3. uhm..depressed here n there
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. your heart
2. the used
3. foreign people trying to grocery shop
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. son of a bitch
2. holy hell
3. screw off ( lmao all swear words )
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. chinese!
2. turkey subs
3. oranges
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. how to drive
2. i have no clue
3. ...still no clue
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1. milk ( chocolate & white)
2. mountain dew
3. ice tea
that`s all folks! lol comment if you wish =)
| so cut my wrists and black my eyes |
Posted at 10:42 am by PrettyGirlx0
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My finger on the trigger ; And your in my way!
[ x- Yippy! Im so glad i finally have a new damn journal type thing. lol =P I was so sick of Livejournal and that Xanga thing was confusing on how to customize it. Well i skipped school today, hehe. It`s a good day to skip also, no tests im missin or anything! And the only hw I had last night wasd a easy math worksheet lol. Wow im freezing & hungry! i`ll prolly write more in hur later. -o ]
Take everything from the | inside |
And throw it all away`Cause I swear
for the | last | time
I won`t trust myself with you
You can only push a girl away for so long until she
walks out of your life on her own.\\ sO be careful &
make sure this is what you want cause once she
turns around..she isnt comin back
| my heart won`t stop bleeding |
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